I am afraid that this here bloggie gives one the impression that I am miserable. I correct you: I am not. And the truth is, I have found The Zone. Okay, I only found it in the last week. But I found it and I tell you, man, it is awesome.

For the first time in a long time, everything is clear. I am happy. I sat down one day and broke into tears, confused and bewildered about the state of my existence. And then at the end of it all it occured to me that if I truly wanted to be happy, I had to put away the fears, the bullshit and the expectations that Society had placed upon me and be frank with myself about what I wanted to do and how I wanted to live.

And then, it was clear.

I want to be a surgeon. I want to operate. I love the OR and I don't give a flying rat's a$$ about people who tell me that I don't fit the mold. Whatever, dude.

I want to run my own practice which uses profits derived from surgical procedures to support preventive healthcare, women's healthcare and integrative medicine stuff. All in the same clinic. All with the ultimate aim of helping the indigent. All outside of the US. Maybe southeast asia; maybe Africa. I'm still unclear about my homing tendencies.